Oh, how busy we can get. Every single time that I feel overwhelmed and stressed, I realize that it's because God has not been my priority. Why can I not just learn my lesson? I fall out of a routine of talking to God and I get cranky, exhausted, and ultimately, I take it out on other people. I become so focused on myself that I find fault in the actions of everyone else, especially those close to me. I'm going to start asking the Lord to help me get better with this. My prayer is that I will find a routine that I can actually stick to, because I want to really know Him all the time.
SO. College update. I've got my dorm just about exactly how I want it. I'm looking for a couple more small things, though. It's going to be an absolute pain to take everything down in May because there are pictures and postcards EVERYWHERE. Oh well, it's a cute little space! Classes are going pretty well, too. I'm just so ready to actually start taking nursing classes. So often I've felt like what I'm doing in class isn't really relevant or beneficial in the long run, and that really frustrates me. Just another reason I need quiet time every day! I've become really good friends with my roommates, which is definitely an answer to prayer! All summer, and basically all of senior year, I asked God to place me with people that challenge me, can minister to me, and also provide me with opportunities to minister to them. I am thankful!
Now, the moment we've all been waiting for.... Grrraaaahhhhmmmm! Okay, well maybe I've just been excited to write this part... EITHER WAY, I love him! He constantly encourages me and shows me the ways he loves me, and I'm so thankful. G, if you're reading this, thank you for being such a Godly man. You encourage me to be more loving and understanding. I know that I can be difficult. Sometimes I read too much into a situation. Sometimes I get upset over small things. Sometimes I get mad and don't know how to express it to you. But you haven't given up on me. Actually, you've done the extreme opposite. You make an effort to talk to me kindly and gently when I'm sad, and let me know that you aren't going anywhere. I appreciate that so much more than I know how to say. You make me so proud to even know you.
Despite some of the stress and the frustration, these past few months have been some of the most wonderful I've ever experienced. I feel so encouraged whenever I take a minute and count my blessings. How great is our God!
"I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." -Ephesians 4:16-21